tried to make peace w/d last night by picking up dinner and handling it myself; no luck and he still slept on the couch.

this morning i picked him up some smokes so he wouldn't have to... also told him i loved him which he said was not the issue. sigh.

breakfast: 1 can slim fast 190 cal.
drink: .5L water bottle with lemonade flavoring 0 cal. (instead of tea)
lunch: .5L water and frozen meal 290 cal.

election day, i voted obama first thing. short polling line for my district.

worked 9:30-17:30. picked up frozen southwestern chicken filling (rice, beans, chicken, corn, peppers) for soft tacos + chips and salsa/queso, and some soda.

breakfast: 1 slimfast can 190 cal.
drink: 1 cup of caramel rooibos tea with 6 sugars and some whole milk
lunch: 2 cutlets chicken francese, 1 20 oz. DP 250 cal., 1 small container fresh watermelon
snacks: none
dinner: 1 12 oz. glass decaf Pepsi, 1 flour tortilla with 4 tbsp. filling (no sour cream, no hot sauce, no cheese), four or five tostitos with queso

watched election results, obama landslide. 2nd night d slept on couch because he's unhappy with me. faked sleep at 11 p.m. to avoid carly due to hot water dispute but actually fell asleep. woke up at 2 a.m. with horrific nightmare involving anna being kidnapped. tried to get d to bed but he refused and stayed on couch. nightmare came back and involved me being raped and beaten this time. very uncomfortable to sleep either on my back or left side due to head pain still from concussion after fainting spell 11OCT. only right side is comfortable to sleep on.

fell asleep praying for obama and his family as well as for america, and also for my marriage which seems to be in big big trouble....